March 10, 2021
Its been forever since ive been active on here but this always seems to be my go to place when i just cant process what im going through. Over the past few months i found out my mom has cancer. She had surgery but its just spread too far and yesterday i found out shes decided not to do chemo which means i have maybe 7months-1 year left with her. I live half way across the country now and im struggling whether to move back to be near her.
Im having a really hard time processing and handling everything. I dont know if anyone will even read this but id appreciate anyones advice on how to cope whos been through this. I dont really have anyone im close to to lean on for support. How am i supposed to face having less than a year left with a mom who i never got to have a good relationship with growing up? I always thought there would be a time in the future where shed get her issues together and we could actually try and now that cant happen. And i know shes scared to die. Im trying to be there for her but my mind is so bad. Im trying to get the energy to start seeing a psychiatrist again. Im struggling.




